This song has been stalking me for the past 36 hours. My boyfriend played it yesterday on his iPod…then I watched the video you Youtube…then it randomly came on my Pandora this morning while I was driving to work. Coincidence? No. I believe in listening to those little signs that come your way. The universe clearly thinks I need to hear it…and that it should inspire me to do something about my current circumstance.

My circumstance is that I’m meant to work for myself, but I’m too afraid to quit my job and fully dedicate myself to operating my business. I’m afraid because I’ve been conditioned by my family and society to have “a real job,” and work for someone else until I retire at age 65. My heart’s desire directly conflicts with everything I’ve been taught my entire life. My heart, mind, and spirit crave creativity, freedom and flexibility TODAY, not in 35 years.

I’ve attempted to strike a balance between my heart’s desire and practicality. I’ve begun building a business on the side while working full-time, which is no small feat. My business could grow more effectively if it weren’t for that got-darn full time job! That got-darn full time job that I depend on to pay my bills and keep a roof over my head and food in my stomach. That got-darn job that I need to survive.

That got-darn job that’s not very stable in and of itself…that could be taken away from me subject to the company’s whim. To my company I’m just a number in a cubicle, not a person. If they fire me and I’m out on the street starving, it doesn’t matter because they will have managed their bottom line by saving money on overhead.

So when am I gonna get up? I’m gonna keep building my business. Whatever happens with the full time job just happens. I don’t know what the outcome will be….but whatever happens is according to God’s will. I believe my heart’s desire is already fulfilled, and that it will pan out accordingly.

When you gon get up?

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